(...I'm as nervous as you 'bout making it right)

'Cause you and me we're meant to be
Walking free in harmony
One fine day we' ll run away
Don' t you know that Rome wasn't built in a day
(Morcheeba)

It takes time for me to fall in love. Or to convince myself I did. Takes time to get used to the idea that I need somebody else in my life. And a lot of time has passed...

I'm still wondering if you think about me. If you talk about me, like I talk about you. My friends must be going crazy 'cause they always - and I mean it, ALWAYS - hear your name in at least one of my sentences.

How can you just leave me standing?
Alone in a world that's so cold?
Maybe I'm just too demanding
Maybe I'm just like my father too bold
Maybe you're just like my mother
She's never satisfied
(Prince)

It's pathetic, I think. You say I'm cool. You don't hate me. Maybe you are really afraid. But hey! Don't you think I'm afraid too? Afraid of spooking you up. Afraid to need another person. Afraid of my mistakes, of your flaws. Afraid to wake up and find out it was all a dream. That we can't stand each other for more than 10 minutes.

Don't you think I'm afraid of so many changes in my life? I'm used to be alone. Loneliness is a choice and I'm used to choose all by myself.

Do I want to cut my hair? Go out every night? Stay at home for a week 'cause I'm not in the mood to fight the world? Do I want to wear a dress? Flirt with a friend? They are all my decisions. And maybe, just maybe, I've lived too long alone to listen to another opinion.


Touch if you will my stomach
Feel how it trembles inside
You've got the butterflies all tied up
Don't make me chase you
Even doves have pride
(Prince)


But then again maybe I don't want to live alone anymore. I'm tired of going out and feel like a third wheel. I'm tired of meeting guys that aren't you: aren't as smart, as funny, as anti-social as you. I'm tired of guys drooling all over me. I don't want that! I'm not a fan of easy things, they feel cheap. Like I didn't deserve them. But boy, do you have to make me crawl? I'm getting pretty tired. I'm about to 'leave the field'. And I really, really didn't want to chose that.